Office Politics/Nepotism

We all grew up that being a hard worker and trying to do what is best is what helps get you somewhere in life but times have change and unless you’re a BFF or loud and would ra.  But over the last few months things have changed in the dynamics of my small office and I feel like the Asian Dilberette of the office and the rosy colored atmosphere is slowly cracking and you soon realize how dysfunctional work can and is. My work place would be ideal if it didn’t have all the eggshells/landmines with every project I work on, the pissing competitions, lack of communications skills that lead to using emails or assistants to speak to each other, lazy/ bad habits, gossip and distrust.  I thought okay the job pays the bills and mortgage but what do I have sacrifice to earn the $$$?

The one thing I hate the most at work is favoritism to the “chosen” ones.  I work in a small office of less than 20 people and let’s say the Nepotism/ favoritism / BFF syndrome is prominent and makes you wonder why bother?  I’m sorry I can’t socialize and talk about my personal matters  or make my job seem more important than others when it feels like my work load has doubled over the last few months and I question why am I still here?  I can’t be fake or a valley girl on a turn of a dime.  I am not trying to set myself apart nor do I like their jokes.

I don’t fit in the dynamics ( I should say the CEO does not like me and their minions follow the beat of their drum), my accomplishments are not being recognized in upper management and are being transferred /assumed that someone else is doing it and I am just a seat warmer that takes phone calls.  I know if there are cut backs I am the next one to go. Even after the new hires and my year with the company makes me feel like my job is at risk if cutbacks are needed.  You know it is bad when the vibe you get from the CEO is a forced politeness of just saying Good morning.  My goodness I think is wrong  and not professional at all.

I know my manager appreciates what I can do and help; but some days it becomes a blur and that is when errors occur.  It seems like I am being set up to fail and not succeed in this place.  The paranoia of someone touching my files to see if I am triple checking things is now the tipping point for me.  I hate being a quitter but the next train out of this drama is coming in the New Year because I don’t think I can do this and I would rather work two minimum wage jobs than stay now.  The only regret I have is that my manager will be left with more on her plate and my goal is try to do as much as I can before I leave.

Sorry!

Sorry/Gomen/Yieks, I didn’t realized that I had abandon my blogging for over a year.  I thank all who have visted my site and read my ramblings.  I had taken a leave to comment and blog about sports and dabble in photography and life just happened.  I have found a new job and now I am adjusted to the scene and will slowly blog about the dramas, sports, life, and thoughts about everything under the sun.  My writing skills are weak but I hope that I am able to convey my message and thoughts.

Things that I will blog over the next few weeks:

1. Mitsu no Aji, latest Japanese Drama I am intrigued with.
2. The Musical, latest Korean Drama I think is uber adorable.
3. Working and realizing there are lazy people everywhere you go
4. Life in general to date or not to date that is the question everyone is asking about me lately, no I am not Gay nor werid, I just choose to be single right now. Besides why waste my time on someone that is meh instead of oh yeah…lol
5. My first and probably last trip to Beijing/China excluding Hong Kong and Macau.
6. Being a driver after using public transit for over 20 years.
7. Being a dog owner of an adopted cutie pie.
8. Friends…meh
9. Tunes, why is it most songs sound the same unless you choose a different genre?
10. Photography, my first love..lol

Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge

SUGOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my goodness, this is cutesy drama that is quite drawing.  I think episode 8 in the finally 5 minutes especially when Kyohei (Kamenashi Kazuya) is crying made my heart ache.  To have your own mother say she regrets having you hits you in the gut.  It drew on the fact a human fact that no matter who we are we love our mothers and want to be near them. But for Kyohei knowing that his mother breaks down everytime she sees him is heartbreaking because the one person to show unconditional love has rejected him and now blames him for the cause of her pain.  The one thing that I wished Sunako to do was to go and comfort him while he was crying.  They are naturally drawn together and they have a comfort level where they open themselves  to each other and draw on having the other’s support in just the moral or presence. 

 

For me I would love to meet a guys with the same characteristics of Kyohei, guys with the complex or strong front but broken little boy is really interesting.  I know most tough guys have a soft side. whether it is small or large, it is something that I would like to know.  To know that someone likes me for who I am and not what I look like is comforting.

Lesson59 LOST&FOUND

 Sometimes in life you will get a little lost and feel like you are all alone and feel that everyone appears more like a stranger But when you feel a little lost, you just have to wait for someone to find you. Someone who loves and cares about you will find you. It’s like a lost child and a parent reuniting again You will be amazed at who will be there with the flash light looking for you

Lesson58 Identity

 After the Olympics it made me ask this: Who are we as a Canadian on a whole? European news outlets have been taking jabs @ Canada but is it wrong to wave the flag and cheer for our team? Are we suppose to be always nice and take 4th and smile and say take the medals? I think what happened in Calgary …for the 03-04 cup run set the tone to go to the streets and cheer for your team. What do you think?

sorry it’s an early one today let me know what you think?

http://www.montrealgazette.com/sports/2010wintergames/Canada+golden+Games+leave+critics+faced/2627877/story.html

Lesson 57 ECC7:8-9

The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride. Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools. BP is slowly rising for hockey but in the end, the boys will do their best. The End matter is the Gold is Canada to lose not for the …US to win. Please don’t let them make a movie about this like Reghr said yesterday GO CANADA GO

Lesson 56 BAKING.

There is nothing like baking to make home be more inviting and comforting to know that someone is home. The smell is just nice to have around the home. I will be making my choco strawberry cream yellow cake for my boys. Win or lose I’m proud of them and I believe the outcome will be different and… more balanced compared to the last time. GO CANADA, pictures to come tomorrowSee More

LESSON 55 WATCHING YOU

It’s amazing how much you watch things like the time or watching someone you care about. What’s even better is just having someone by your side to watch with you. A simple act of looking at someone and not having to say a lot and enjoying a quiet moment over wine/ coffee/ dinner/ chocolate what …ever it maybe is something I am looking forward to when I find the person who wants to watch me too.

Lesson 54 REPEAT

 There are some moments where you want to repeat and other times it feels like the movie Ground Hogs day. My fav moment is holding a cup of coffee sitting down and watching life pass around me or walking around with my camera not knowing what I see but always ready with the lens. GO CANADA GOLD BABY!LI…KE THE MCD’s AD, BOYS WHAT CAN YOU DO? I THINK WE MAY DO BETTER

Lesson 53 Song Cup

 Like in Legally Blonde, on my MP3 player, surf and find a song of the day/week to calm me down when it gets stressful at work or in life. Lately I’m resorting back to my Japanese girly music. Oye. What’s on your playlist? GO CANADA, I believe in you boys and Thank you to the USA for waking up the… dragaon! Now back to the game. just a period and a bit left.