Am I Imagining things?
What would you do when it feels like someone is avoiding you? You’ve probably seen it in the movies when someone tries to ditch someone “subtly” but leaves their friend behind it is a scene that is quite comical and juvenile. I went out with a friend and bumped in to some people I knew when I was in school and before you could finishing saying “Ottawa is the capital of Canada”, the person you have the polite pleasantries of hi, how are you, leaves the conversation citing that they were going to meet with someone.
For me I tried to brush it off and my friend said something that was true, that I shouldn’t care but the more I thought about it, it was more I was like what the ??? I have to wonder what are people saying about me? What did I say or didn’t say to have this awkward moment. I’m generally a pretty quiet person who minds their business but will speak my mind when I feel that someone is wrong or if something needs to be aired out. The debate now is whether or not to call these people out to coffee or write an email asking them upfront. I know the email is a copout but at least I am letting them know that I want to work it out.
Which friendships are worth keeping these days? Which ones are just another one that slips through the cracks. After graduating and working and living on my own for a few years, I realize that being around Christians only cripple my ability to relate to non-Christians and I became a cookie cutter person of what people expected me to be in church, in school and in life. But when I decided to find myself and realize who I am, I lose the circle of Christian friends and I had to start rebuilding relationships of the past and new and the one with God.
It’s amazing how one feels isolated and you lose friends and you are left with the few who care about you. I know that I am far from being perfect but I am mindful with a heart to serve others who are less fortunate, and not to those who take but realize they are only in it for their self-preservation or for their peers. In other words, I stick up to what my beliefs are, what my faith is and I could care less if I don’t fit the mould of others believe it should be or that I don’t have a lot of close friends, I am who I am, I am who God allowed me to be and I am still learning.
~ by mymessydrawer on November 12, 2007.
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It was rude when the person walked away from you when you were just trying to have a conversation.
Very ignorant of that person indeed!!! they should be ashamed of themselves.
You are puzzled why they behaved like that coz u didn’t expect it.
This world has a lot of ignorant people, its shocking sometimes, and it seems to happen when we least expect it.
Agree with urself that person was rude and u are annoyed at them.
At least u have some real friends be greatful for the ones u have and that u can talk to.
Forget about the ignorant ones.
Take ur real friend for a coffee and enjoy:)
Hey Tash,
Actually, i’m not. I know that when you speak up when something isn’t right and you stick to your guns you tend to lose people along the way. I can say that I am stubborn but I know what I believe in and by standing up, I lost most of the people I met in my last 2 years of school.
People will say we never mend to but when someone says something wrong and you allow them to continue then it’s hypocritical to say it after the fact. All I can say it that I was let down and now that i’m out of school I need to appreciate the ones I have.
Yes, I love the ones that stick around then the pleasant hi how are you bye friends. Thanks for reading my vents. I know sometimes I feel childish to write them but it keeps me sane