The White Flag goes up at work yet again….
Just breathe, it is all about timing. Right now I am deciding when to leave yet again. This is disheartening but seriously with my stomach acting up and serious tension headaches makes this decision easier in most cases. I don’t know why I do this to myself but I know when I mentally have the white flag up I need to go. Right now I am going to wait for my manager to come back and if things don’t change then I can live off my tax return easily for 2 months.
I’ve been through two different jobs over the last two years and I am left scratching my head wondering why do I find the jobs where the hiring manager for me is usually gone or under a lot of stress. After being at this job for 10 months, I have seen a lot of things that are making me wanting to leave because of the drama and unfairness I see. I see people abusing the “nice” GM but in my eyes the GM needs to step up and must realize that they have caused the disunity. When you let things slide, you don’t realize how pissed some people will get over time.
I know there are a lot of things that I can’t control but being walked over and seeing how unfair things are getting makes me wonder if I should just not show up to work to make a point that doing their little side jobs isn’t helping. Half the time I feel that maybe if I treat people to food or something will help but now I realize they just expect free stuff or don’t even try to repay after the first few times. I can see how things are being assimilated to the old way the GM knows but in reality it can’t be that great because the company went out of business.
Now I have to contemplate how to write my resignation. I know I will be stating the things that are unprofessional and mean for sure but I need to protect my manager. I find that this time being a Christian means how many ways I can use this person before they break, being a competent means how many ways can I attack and screw this person over. I know that there is a fine line but seriously I feel that I need to find a new job.
I always try to see why God has put me in this position but over all I see no good out of this. I have been the opposite of what I am, smiling and content now I look for blood, I feel like I’m a shark waiting for that drop of blood coming from anywhere and then I go for the kill. I need to find peace with this but I feel that it will not work it self out and why put myself through this craziness when there are decent jobs out there.
If the You know who is reading this, where are you? What’s going on?
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